So in other words you are extremely reticent to admit that strict inanimate physical materialism is a central belief of your atheist worldview, but then OTOH you will not tell me about these other transcendent planes of reality that might exist beyond physical matter and energy -->Why does atheism terrify you so, Cliffe?
But if you challenge (atheists) to take their belief system to it's logical conclusion, they end up in all kinds of illogical pretzel-twisting.
Those deep contradictions are disguising an agnostic core