"Many come in my name but they aren't mine"!When I was flirting with atheism I never could convince myself that nothing existed but matter and energy, that a lawful universe could pop into existence by random chance, that imagination, love freely given, creativity, and conscience were nothing but the electrochemical reactions between electrons in the head.
The belligerent atheist is a bit of a mystery, as much as the Bible thumping Christian nationalist.
Christian Nationalist is a contradiction!
You either fall Christ or the Secular world! You can't do both!