Translation: God damn you, Dutch, for continually questioning my Christianity even when I never act like a Christian.
You should stop claiming to be a Christian, Fat Boy, since you never act like one. At least not for long. You don't put God first, you put your own needs and wants first. You don't love your neighbor, you hate the vast majority of them.
When you start acting like an honest person, then you and I can have an honest discussion about my relationship with God.
So you begin the post by Blaspheming. Hmmmmm. The rest of the post is no better. So I ask again,....is this post of yours an example of how you walk with the Lord? If not why did you choose to use the words you used in it?