It is obviously embarrassing to have to continue to defend the Party of Trump.
It takes someone who utterly lacks self-respect, honor, and dignity to continue to spend countless hours running cover for a dude who is quite obviously the stupidest, least capable, most inarticulate, and most dim-witted person ever to be allowed to hold the office of the presidency.
Conservatism, such as it is, simply does not exist anymore. A political party is utterly spent ideologically and philosophically when the best argument they can muster to justify their party is:
"But Hillary would have been even worse!"